Highlights of 2016

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Went on my first cruise to Mexico y Cosumel with my family + all of our boyfriends
Got to visit my bff from high school at her new stomping grounds
Attended the National NCAA convention and met cool people like Mutombo
YOGA
Got to see my neighbors start their first soccer seasons
Went to SPI for spring break
Finally got that tattoo
Met Charles Barkley at the TLU Front Row fundraiser
Got my class ring
Got surprised with a brand new car
Tried out IM softball for the first time
Joined the track squad and made all-conference for throwing javelin
Ran a Glow/Color Run 5K
Was nominated for NCAA Woman of the Year
Graduated from college with a BS in Molecular Biology, a BA in Chemistry, and minor in Math
Did a tough mudder half w/ one of the most BA chicks out there
Was accepted into a masters program and moved to Fort Worth
Made some amazing new friends
Jumped head-first off a crane so I could "bungee jump"
Went to a Lil Jon concert for free
Became a service coordinator for my new school
Dressed up like a Whoopie Pie in the name of community service
Saw RENT the musical live
Was accepted into a couple medical schools
Dressed up as mermaid man for halloween
Learned how to intubate
Ran my first Thanksgiving 5K
Saw the Jersey Boys at the Majestic
My younger sister got engaged
Lalo graduated with his BS in Education
Celebrated Christmas #4 with Lalo y his family

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Empty

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